Monday, September 20, 2010

Fear of Failure

Why am I so scared to fall? Worried I won't be able to keep up? I think the fear of failure is one of my most limiting qualities. If I don't try my hardest at something, it's like I convince myself that I *could* do it, if I had really tried. Unfortunately I think this has a more negative effect overall than if it turned out I have to work extra-hard at something in order to achieve it.

I fight this fear every time I go to practice, even just GETTING to practice is an internal struggle. This roller derby thing does not come easy to me, especially when I see skillsets surpassing my own in girls that started this endeavor long after me.

Anyway, last week I only completed half of practice on Monday. Craptastic eating habits and little water left me dehydrates, dizzy, and exhausted. Tuesday Daniel led a drill and we had a visiting skater. I am extremely insecure in my speed and blocking ability, but did complete the exercises. Then scrimmage where I busted my elbow because of my cheap pads.

Saturday was our fair demonstration, I was once again the fat girl. I *hate* being the fat girl in the group!!! Three of us were on skates, 4 weren't, and we did several short demonstrations. Wrecks' flirty ways also scored us free cinnamon rolls. Nice. Straight from the fair to BB's baby shower, and though I had grand plans to either return to the fair or head to Dylan's party, the night ended with me watching The Bounty Hunter with my parents. hehe. Sunday was the last bout of the season - TARG's expo (or The Lightening Broads) vs GCRG's expo (Thunder Dollz) and I screamed so much I lost my voice and gave myself a headache. They whooped us HARD, 249 to 69. What a way to go out.

Monday, September 13, 2010

Tournament and More!

Wow, 10 days since I've updated, I'm such a slacker. :)

I missed Monday's practice because I was fully enjoying my Labor Day. Tuesday's practice was a lot of fun. Dizzy led an exercise that we had seen at RollerCon. The first half was off-skates, side shuffle, grapevine, and a football-type drill where one girl stands in the middle, back to the line of girls and trys to booty block them then they run toward her and dodge around. I have to be honest, I was SUPER nervous about the on-skates portion. I hate being the slowest one in a group! But I didn't need to worry, I was right on par with some of the other new girls, and ended up having fun while improving skills. Then an unremarkable scrimmage where I managed not to fall too much!

Wednesday was warmup then scrimmage. Poor Bella forgot ONE of her skates at home in Norman and was using the rental skates which had crud caked on the wheels and aren't great to skate on even when pristine. So I insisted she use my skates for the scrimmage portion (she was playing on Saturday, I of course was not). She said they worked well but were a lot heavier on her feet!

Friday some of us went to GI's house to prep the welcome baskets for tournament participants. Ni-Trick, Zooey, Dizzy, and Tawny along with GI and I made the prepping pretty easy and the baskets looked phenomenal!! (Pictures to be added)

The tournament was exhausting! Andy and I arrived at about 10am and helped set up. Rita was nice enough to do my make-up and I had ga-ga sparkles going on - lol. I ran the scoreboard during the first home game and expo game and it is a job I really enjoy. By the last game though, I already knew the outcome and was just tired. Brian convinced me I would have fun at the after party, and he was RIGHT! Don Quixote's karaoke bar was awesome when full of derby girls. Appetizers to eat, energy drinks, and LOTS of dancing with Banana, Meanie, Rose and many more!

Tourney recap:
TDB vs GCRG - shut out by green country 220 to 20
TDB vs TARG-A - CLOSE game but we squeezed out a win
TARG-B vs CORDA - very close but CORDA took the win, due in no small part to Faerie Mean
TARG-A vs GCRG - dominated by green country

Wednesday, September 1, 2010

Pinky Toe Inconveniences

While our team has been around a long time, it has seen a tremendous growth spurt in the last year. Times are a-changing and we're now a WFTDA apprentice league, are sorting through our fresh meat process, and attendance is open record. I'm sure more changes are being discussed behind the scenes, but us minions don't know about them yet.

Anyway... I am in LOVE with outdoor skating! A few times I caught myself reverting back to childhood and bracing fully upright for a fall. I had to consciously remind myself to squat so if that broken concrete does make me fall at least it's to my knees and not my butt. We did 5 miles because of my time restrictions (and some girls being late) and I look forward to next time completing an entire route around the lake (11 miles).

Sunday my boyfriend and I were goofing around giving hip checks and I was between him and our water-bed frame (with regular matress). I caught my right pinky toe on the drawers under the bed and ripped half of my toenail off (and proceeded to cuss like a sailor). Monday I come into work limping, and no working out or skating for me that day. Yesterday it was much better so I attended our monthly meeting and then did jogging, plyometrics and stretching but opted out of scrimmaging. Did I hurt myself this much before I joined derby??

And I almost forgot, I really need to get back on my Couch to 5k program. *grumble*